The day of the $.

Just thought i'd write a quick blog about the most profitable day in poker history. Played for about 6 hours, couple of $100 MTT's and a shitload of $55 2/6/10 handed stt's and i managed to win the grandtotal of $1!!!! Oh yes that was awesome. To be honest have been down most of the day so i'm not to bothered. It made me question the whole reason i play poker a little bit but right now i don't regret a single moment of this seemingly wasted day. Yes poker can be a grind and it hurts when you run bad and make some bad decisions but the very fact it can be difficult is the reason its so great. When i'm running good it feels like the easiest game in the world, everything just seems to fall into place but to be a truly great player i believe you must be able to ride out the bad times and maintain a high standard of decision making, a skill that i dont possess at this moment in time but hope to attain in the near future.
I'm in a kind of weird philosophical mood at the moment and feel like i'm able to assess where i am as a person. In general i'm very happy with life the way it is and not really thinking about the future but my immediate frustrations lie with my inability to secure a big win that would give me some much needed financel security. I've made the top 100 of a major sunday comp four times and to have 0 final tables is a bit of a joke. Its hard not to get frustrated at times but i've just got to work on getting better and hoping that i can win that big hand at the right time which has eluded me thus far. Might have to save that for the WSOP main event.